last post

last post...
dun ask me y...
i duno y..
feel like..
writing blog for nothing...
juz a place..
for ppl to spam..
haiz..
although is last adi...
but still wan to write about my life lo..
overall..
exam over adi...
result...
still ok..
la...
better than expected = =
now...
everyday go school...
teacher also lazy come in class...
all ppl run here run there...
some even dun wan to come school...
form 3 like that...
form 4 also like that...
but form 5..
haiz...
like monkey inside the zoo...
facing spm...
ppl adi enjoying but they still nid to face exam...
although now i only form 4...
but oredi can feel the stress next year...
that kind of feel...
cannot imagine...
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dun think about spm 1st la...
still got 2 month for me to enjoy...
put beside 1st...
wakaka...
but..
cannot enjoy too much la...
later really money not enough use 2...
haha..
juz few days ago...
go sungai wang...
wa..
syok...
haha...
that day me and huay yau reach there 1st..
then other ppl all haven reach ma...
so we 2 go walk whole sungai wang lo...
= =
walk jor one hour like that...
walk till leg also wan cacat adi...
then finally they come jor lo...
got vince...
jia jiun...
melvin...
khai shien(duno got spell wrong or not = =)
then tam later onli come...
they come liao say wan go eat lunch 1st wor...
i dun care them la...
i straight go roller adi..
haha..
coz juz now got c leng lui go inside... = =
then go roll lo...
haha...
actually is kap lui more than roller = =
6th time go roller...
but those 1st timer still more pro than me..
haiz..
cacat la me..
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but this time after roller leg no pain...
duno y = =
then after that all not enuff syok wor...
how ler?
go greenbox sing k lo...
haha...
geng ler...
4 pm something go book room...
= =
book 5 pm...
then...
still got one hour ler...
go where ler?
go gasoline yam cha...
= =
quite insane jor we...
haha...
then call drink lo...
i go and call...
virgin honeymoon...
= =
RM6++
there adi very cold...
still drink cold drink...
geng la...
after drink jor so high adi = =
then 5 pm go sing k...
me sing till too high adi haha...
all dun let me take mic...
say me spoil song...
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nvm la...
also can sing...
the tam more geng la...
go choose malay song...
= =
all watch him sing onli...
he sing till so high pitch...
cannot reach his standard...
haiz..
other also pro kaki la..
jia jiun singing king lai de....
vince also...
even khai shien and melvin...
= =
huay yau also noe sing one...
lol..
sing jor 3 hours...
so syok ler...
then c watch...
8 pm jor..
walao eh...
1st time play till so late haha...
then all back lu...
haha..
unforgetable day...
hehe...
somehow...
last post adi...
maybe next time dun hav such thing anymore...

finally

finally...
exam finish adi...
is time to play~
haha...
so funny...
is our tradisi...
finish exam then sure go play until syok one...
but...
everyone seems like study so hard like that...
they juz can relak after exam...
but me..
juz so relak onli..
didnt even care of this exam...
maybe...
got care la..
a ' final ' exam...
in form 4..
last exam in form 4...
after this we wont got so relak adi...
then...
form 5...
whole year busy...
then..
leave school adi...
cannot come back to school adi...
school...
is not juz a place to study...
is a place..
we found our friendship...
found our knowledge..
found our love..
found our life...
but...
time is juz pass like that...
one second..
one second..
gone...
now is adi end of form 4...
still got 2 month...
then form 5 adi...
so fast...
cant imagine...
but somehow...
regret also no use adi..
time will not come back...
wad can do?
enjoy in this 2 month...
or suffer in this 2 month...
i duno...
i so scare...
i scare after i enjoy...
i will suffer...
i scare after i suffer...
i will not enjoy anymore...

exam

today..
suddenly..
got the mood of blogging...
but..
exam still haven finish ler...
next week still got exam...
got math la..
physics..
chemistry...
add math...
biology...
n sejarah paper 1 = =
hehe..
so many haven read yet..
but..
i think..
give up adi...
so far..
i think i have wasted my form 4 life..
juz like that...
when i think back..
i didnt really study in form 4...
when teacher is teaching i juz sleeping...
and when come to exam that time..
i found that i really miss many lesson...
wad has happen to me?
this is not me right?
duno..
dun wan to think about it...
still got 2 days for me to study onli...
after this week...
everything will become back normal...
i will become back myself..
or..
actually i didnt even really serious in form 4 also..
ppl say..
form 4 is a honeymoon year...
yea it is true...
but i didnt even honeymoon also..
i duno wad am i doing in form 4...
or maybe...
form 4 juz a extra year to separate pmr and spm..
last year pmr...
i also play like that...
but the month before pmr...
onli i start to study..
start to serious..
then i get striaght A in pmr...
duno is lucky or wad...
but this year..
i dun really got the mood to study..
when i open the book...
i cant even noe wad i have read inside...
maybe..
i juz not suitable in science stream...
but..
it is too late to change?
i have no time adi..
i have adi go half way...
i cannot go back adi..
juz can continue walking on this path of darkness..

sivik projek..

We are walking on the time...

today..
finally...
no nid stay at house jor...
haha...
at house so xian la...
somemore read finish whole sejarah text book adi...
i think i am insane le ><
haha...
go wei xin house...
do sivik projek haha...
got wei xin....for sure la...
li yen...
ruth...
kim li...
tam...
wei chee..
jeremy...
n me...
actually...
i feel i am extra at there...
lol..
ntg to do...
haiz...
in my group...
got 2 couple nia...
so sad nia...
c them 4...
haha...
aiyo...
sudah biasa adi...
is like this geh la...
but at least..
still got other ppl still single like me..
haha...
so i wont feel very boring la...
then afternoon...
go tesco...
eat thing...
haha...
they kinda rich nia...
go those restaurant...
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haha...
i keep steal jeremy geh food n eat...
haha...
coz his meal so delicious nia...
lol...
then...
after eat...
go walk walk lo...
ntg to do...
then back home...
continue do projek...
lol..
haha..
then..
everybody also quite xian la...
like that onli lo...
juz do the projek...
then finish...
back home...

one month le..

when can i meet u?

one month le...
me n my gf walk together...
actually..
juz web relation onli...
we didnt even meet each other...
we didnt even call each other...
juz onli chat on msn..
n sms onli...
but...
this month got her beside me..
i very happy adi...
haha...
although we juz chat through msn n sms onli...
but somehow...
after we start...
she less online adi...
duno y...
maybe she busy...
or she start to prepare her exam...
duno...
many ppl ask me...
u every night online...
dun play game...
do wad ar?
not xian meh....
i onli can answer them...
enen..
xian...
i never tell them...
actually i am waiting my gf to online...
sometimes wait whole night...
2 night...
even 3 night...
but she no online also..
me like an idiot...
juz online at there onli...
didnt do anything...
juz hearing some sad song...
and that's my whole night...
i can sms her to find her...
but i didnt..
coz..
maybe she really busy or wad...
dun wan to disturb ppl...
maybe..
i too serious in this relation adi...
maybe...
juz me only giving myself so much pressure...
duno this relation can last how long...
but juz wish we r happy in the following days
that's enough adi..

facing some problem...

dun give so much hope to me pls...

altot we r so near but so far...

aikz..
today read sejarah textbook ler...
so guai today haha...
but..
read 3 chapter adi then no read liao...
xian...
go online...
haha...
haiz..
suffering from love problem...
haiz...
maybe i perasan saja...
ter-love a gal...
that i should not love...
ppl got bf adi...
but..
but..
cannot control my feelings..
haiz..
dun wan to kacao ppl la...
dun wan to say out who is she..
maybe..
this is the best solution...
for me n for her...

school flower school grass competition

Try to find back the missing part...

But cannot...

Try to hide my sad feeling...

But cannot also...

today..
our exxon mobil organize the...
school flower school grass competition...
haha...
sound like quite interesting like that..
but actually is quite boring..
quite failure..
haiz..
maybe the time to prepare to short adi...
and also got some technical problem...
so...
not very good la...
but the competition still running...
overall...
still ok la...
1st time handle this kind of project...
haha...
anyway...
at least got a ending lo...
happy ending...
not like my love...
didnt dare to start it also...

the feel come back again...

duno wan to hate or like this feel....

aikz..
the feel...
should gone adi one...
suddenly come back adi...
duno y...
today...
suddenly...
saw her...
then...
duno y...
got one strange feel...
aikz..
heart beat faster again...
feel some cold sweat...
kinda scare...
kinda panic...
then suddenly speechless nia...
hand and leg cannot move like that...
then...
memory blank there...
cannot think anything...
try to escape from that situation....
aikz...
got gf adi la...
but duno y still got this kinda feel...
maybe...
really love another gal adi...
haiz...
duno how to face my gf...
duno how to face my friend...
duno how to face...her...

100 days le...

i wish u can lie on my shoulder...

my blog...
100 days le..
haha...
quite long adi lo...
but time pass like very fast like that...
still remember that time 1st time write blog...
keke...
so funny..
in this 100 days...
got many ppl visit my blog...
got good comment...
got bad comment...
haiz..
ok la..
this is my style...
dun mengkritikkan english saya...
lol...
haha..
but..
the condition still same..
my blog still lonely...

masakan moden...again

bleeding on finger...

juz pain on hand onli...

but who can stop the bleeding in my heart?

today scout...
no go desa water park...
cancel adi...
haha...
so sad la..
nvm...
today activity still cooking...
masakan moden...
but cook geh thing muz ada kaitan wif rice...
haha..
then all go cook lo..
nasi goreng...
and also porridge...
haha..
me no go cook lo...
lazy...
me go store room...
make kerusi = =
swt..
but make till half...
no make adi...
lazy...
then come out c they cook wad...
haha..
then cook nasi goreng..
use fresh nasi one...
not use nasi sejuk...
= =
make the nasi goreng so basah...
haha
the porridge still ok...
but add many many thing inside adi..
chicken la..
pumpkin la..
telur masin...
telur kulit...
lol..
so many...
but..
still taste ok = =
haha..
but dun have last time so tasty lo...
haha...
dun care la...
can fill stomach then can adi..
haha..
but duno back home will how onli...
lol..
exam coming adi..
xian...
back home liao still no read books...
still online..
= =
wan fa mei adi...
duno wad result will come out in my exam...

exam coming adi lo...

feel myself so hopeless...

wuwu..
exam coming adi...
sad...
left onli that two weeks...
aikz...
haven touch my book yet la...
lol...
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hopeless la me...
last week tot i adi can control myself..
not to on9 so much...
then now...
every night also on9 liao..
somemore on9 till 12am...
walao...
haha...
so far...
haven start to study yet...
juz waiting for the time to come...

xian mooncake festival...

What am i still waiting for?

I am already beside u....

xian...
mooncake festival again...

haha...

last time children that time...

this festival really fun geh...

coz last time duno wad is xian...

onli noe play play play...

keke...

play tanglung...

play candle...

eat mooncake...

so fun...

but now no le...

grow big le...

cant find back that feel adi...

scout masakan moden

Somethings...

We no nid to find it...

It will come and find us itself...

today scout....
chg jor time...
8am..
last time 9am de..
make me no time to eat breakfast...
aikz...
lol..
then..
juz drink milo onli lo..
xian..
go there...
ok la..
maybe many ppl duno chg time adi...
many ppl late come...
haha...
then...
today activity...
masakan moden...
cook western food = =
lol...
then..
divide group lo...
and go pasar buy thing...
then back school cook lo...
haha..
quite busy...
but actually my group quite free geh...
coz cook spaghetti ma...
lolz...
then other group got...
salad...
fruit...
chicken chop...
mushroom soup..
agar-agar...
haha..
like that lo..
then cook finish jor...
then eat lo..
kaka...
quite nice...
this is the best meal that i have ever eat in scout= =
then..
after eat..
then...
clean thing...
then mesyuarat...
discuss next week geh activity...
got many suggestion la...
wad boil porridge...
wad swimming...
wad go hot spring...
then later all agree...
go desa water park play water!!!
haha...
this place again...
this place...
bring back so many sweet memory and sad memory...

happy birthday to myself...

A cake from my gf..

happy birthday to myself...

keke...

birthday so happy...
= =
actually ntg so happy lo...
juz like a normal day like that...
but..
got many ppl wish me lo...
haha..
wan me list out ma?
keke...
not many onli la..
juz a few... some some..
unofficially... the day before my birthday...
1st...keekeat...2pm adi say happy birthday jor = =
2nd... stewart...haha..he bigger than me 10 years ler...

3rd...lee jia...haha...duno her real name actually = =
4th...elaine...kaka...noe her by msn...
5th...pei min...kaka...seremban friend...
6th…varadero..duno who r him actually = =
7th...lu yi...haha...nice friend ^^
then...
officially lo...
after 12am...
8th(1st)...xuan...my lovely gf ^^
9th(2nd)...keekeat...again...
10th(3rd)...bugy~haha...my friend geh sister...
11th(4th)...stewart...again...haha...
12th(5th)...ivan...tuition friend....
13th(6th)...yuki...not my gf yuki xuan la ><...is another ppl ge gf...
14th(7th)...pei yi...my jie..keke...
then reach school....
15th(8th)...peak hui...keke...lenglui...
16th(9th)...jia jiun...keke...lengzai...
17th(10th)...jian zhang...pro singer...
18th(11th)...wei xin...keke...tall tall gal...
19th(12th)...jun yi...sit beside me geh...
20th(13th)...pn norhayati...bm teacher...keke...
21st(14th)~57th(50th)...my whole class sing birthday song to me...
58th(51st)…nabila...same class four years jor...
59th(52nd)...yee wai...wakaka...lin jun jie oo....
60th(53rd)...kee wai...old friend...
61st(54th)...qing...noe from msn also geh...
62nd(55th)...bei...from seremban...too...
63rd(56th)...stewart....him again lo....
64th(57th)....melvin...cute boy...keke...
65th(58th)...wei xin...again...in blog...keke....
66th(59th)...wei xin...again...in msn...sing birthday song to me...
67th(60th)....pei yi...keke...my jie again...
68th(61st)...karxeng...reddevilz....
69th(62nd)...pancheng....primary school old best friend...
70th(63rd)and 71st(64th)...wenxin and serene...primary school friends
72nd(65th)..alang…my bm tuition teacher…
73rd(66th)…my lenglui cousin..keke…
74th(67th)…sam..sifu…
75th(68th)…mun…another lenglui…
then…tmr…
76th(69th)…stewart…again…he is crazy maybe = =
kaka…
that’s all gua…
maybe got some I forget jor…
sry ar…
coz I cant remember so many names…
haha…
nvm…
this year no receive any present lo…
juz receive a cake from gf…
and also a card from a gal…
keke…
nvm..
satisfy adi…
although I noe speak out jor birthday wish…
then wish will not come true…
but I juz wan to tell my wish here…
I hope that every year my friends will remember my birthday…

feel so fresh~~

We are angels on the sky...

We are always flying so high...

When we are tired...

Maybe juz rest at a point...

And we can c that the world is so different...

These few days..
say to myself...
no on9...
then really no on9...
wakaka...
maybe got gf teman me...
so no on9 also wont feel sien...
wakaka...
no on9..
everyday sleep early...
feel so fresh in school...
lolz...
at least...
wont feel so sleepy in class...
kaka...
aikz..
this weekend...
nid to finish all homework jor..
if not...
really no time to study for exam...

so tired ar~

Cant really find a time...

For myself to rest...

so tired ar~
these few days...
everyday on9 till late late night...
become night stalker jor ><
aikz...
exam coming soon ar...
i wan to study ar...
i wan to rest ar...
i promise to myself jor...
after this weekend...
nid study hardwork jor...
reduce on9...
can i do this?
can i control myself?
no one noe...
perhaps onli god will noe...

happy birthday to Malaysia...

Before we start to walk we muz learn how to crawl...
If we dun learn how to crawl then we will fall...

happy birthday to my country~
Malaysia~
happy birthday~
kaka...
and also..
happy birthday to my friend also~
kaka..
merdeka baby~
so nice...
keke...
haiz...
think till here..
start to sad jor..
duno who will still remember my birthday...
duno who will buy cake for me..
duno who will sing birthday song to me...
duno who will give present to me...
juz so many duno..
and dun really wan to noe..
juz..
i also duno wad should i do...
i juz wan to over my birthday wif my true friends onli...

Something should have start to change in my life...

My fate of fighting has start to change...

Since that i have choose to pick up the swords of fate...

aikz..
today wake up..
also dun feel like wan to go school like that..
coz..
yesterday very late sleep ler...
chat wif gf...
wakaka....
then...
nvm la..
go school jor..
see many friends really ponteng..
no come school..
becoz..
today also no study ma...
onli got the majlis kemuncakan kemerdekaan...
so..
many ppl ponteng lo..
me lo..
scare die...
scare kena record..
so come school..
then come jor school see..
today no use thumbprint system also..
walao..
so regret coming to school..
so..
ntg la..
haiz..
juz sleep in dewan onli..
haha..
the form 2 student..
got do the drama ma...
pahlawan pasir salak..
so darn funny...
wakaka...
duno how to describe...
juz noe now de small kid very creative jor..
haha..
then after that..
exxon mobil meeting lo..
darn sienz...
kaka..
after that...
go leisure lo...
watch movie..
be4 watch movie..
we go eat thing ma...
at tan cha house there...
u guess i meet who...
meet my cousin!!!
the world is so small...
lol...
aiya..
at 1st i not sure is her or not..
i watch her at that so long...
then my friend all tot me gap lui...
lol!!!
aikz..
then later..
confirm jor..
say hi lo..
haha...
my cousin so surprise..
she ask..
y u will at here geh?
lol!!!
maybe i at home too guai jor...
haha...
then..
i and my friends sitting beside them lo..
haha..
they that time play 'true or dare' but no true geh..
play until very wolf ler...
kaka..
what also dare to do..
aikz..
then they got one gal lose jor ma..
then come we here...
say hi to us..
then me say hi to her lo...
haha..
then she ask my name...
i tell her my name...
and she ask my handphone number...
then i tell her...
this kind of thing not me ask geh meh?
make the situation so paiseh...
then i say i no bring phone..
so i juz give her my phone number lo...
haha...
then she ask me..
tmr wan to go countdown or not?
then i tell her...
tonite we sms...
lol!!!
haha..
so funny..
all ppl at there laughing...
wakaka...
then after that..
i go play wif them also...
then
very unlucky..
me get the smallest card...
aikz..
kena hukuman pula..
then they tell me to dance the pipe dance..
walao..
so hard...
they really gila geh...
then..
ntg lo..
juz simply dance..
after that..
i dun scare die...
go play again..
but this time..
i didnt get the smallest card
but they all say that was the smallest...
lol!!!
then i call vince come to help me..
vince say..
you smallest la...
haha..
i noe jor he will say like this...
but nvm la..
juz wan to make the situation become higher..
but..
their hukuman on me really very geng la..
wan me to strip cloth...
walao...
geng dao..
me say dun wan jor..
got any other hukuman yang lain?
they say dun hav..
aikz..
then...
strip jor..
aikz..
so fish...
wakaka...
aikz..
ntg la..
anything also got 1st time ma...
after that..
go watch movie..
dun mess with zohan..
darn funny movie lol..
is really a 18 sx movie lai geh!!!
but put umum...
lol..
inside de story plot...
and the zohan...
really..
darn funny...
duno how to say...
wakaka..
anyway...
is really a nice movie...
haha..
then aikz..
back home...
so tired..
but...
cannot sleep ler..
miss my gf jor...
lolz..
exam still got one month onli..
still playing like that...
maybe..
something should have start to change in my life now..